Today I find myself lost in a question that I’m not sure has an answer. The question is, what is it that makes one person decide to fight OCD full force and what makes another decide that it just isn’t worth it?
I’m pondering this for a couple of reasons. One is that I wonder what makes Blake hold on to his OCD symptoms so fiercely when he has had much treatment, much success over his OCD the past, and when he possesses all the knowledge and tools that he needs to live as OCD-free as one can live. The other reason is that I’ve been dealing with someone in my professional life who lives a life that is so debilitated by OCD, and yet who cannot decide if they are willing to move beyond it.
I don’t have OCD so I don’t have the internal sense of how it must feel to face treatment and all that must be done to overcome it. At the same time, I did struggle enormously with a social anxiety disorder for a very long time. It was incredibly challenging overcoming it, yet worth every terrifying moment. I never want to be back where I was again.
When I am dealing with someone who is much older than Blake who is not yet ready to leave OCD’s grasp, it makes me wonder what lies ahead for Blake. I feel so powerless in the face of both of these two and I do not like that feeling. I’m curious if there’s anyone out there who can share what it is that helped them make the decision to free themselves from OCD.